Love-hate

When our relationship first started, I didn't really understand you.

I didn't know why you chose me.

What is it about me that was so special or different?

But after a while, things got better

and our relationship blossomed.

I saw the silver lining on the cloud, the greener grass on the other side.

I dreamed about us, being together.

I couldn't wait to spend time and to share the good moments with you.

I think about you every day, you're just there in my mind.

There was nothing I could do to prevent you from distracting me.

A few weeks after that, I was able to forget you

for a day or a moment, 

until someone mentions you to me.

I had to drain you out of my mind for a bit

to make room for my studies.

I had to focus on my SPM.

But as soon as SPM ended, I tried to make contact.

I even wrote a letter.

I've waited for so long but I still haven't gotten any reply.

Why haven't you replied?

What is going on?

All this waiting is driving me mad.

I went from liking you a lot to disliking you at the moment.

All the nice feelings I had for you had been slowly fading, day by day.

I don't know what else to say.. 

Oh, NS.

Eek.

Uek.

*NS refers to National Service, not Nathaniel Sia or Nicole Sim. =\

xoxovon

Life is tough. So many people to please, so little time.