Nostalgic

I wanna blog about National Service but somehow.. I don't know where to begin. There's a lot to share and say about my NS experience. Honestly speaking, I don't regret going and for those people who haven't gone through it, thou shall not fret. Haha. To those who hate and didn't enjoy their time at NS, well too bad for you. I enjoyed mine :) We are only human and we have our own opinions on things.

My camp was Kem Putra Sentosa (KPS), Sematan. One of the Top 3 camps in Malaysia. I was initially posted to Betong ...thank goodness for the change of camp. Phew. KPS boleh lah boleh, KPS boleh..

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I cried like hell. 4 times in a day. 8th of June, I will forever remember you.. Remember, remember, the 8th of June. Nah, doesn't ryhme. Once, after upacara penyerahan pangkat which was after midnite. Then at the hall in the morning before parting ways and boarding our bus. Third time at the airport and then fourth, back home.

Honestly, I miss NS.. the people, the activities, the life. It really gets to you after living together for many many weeks. Plus, we see each other all day. I never thought I'd be so close to people I only get to know for less than 3 months and at the same time have fun times with them, I think I was wrong. I miss a lot of people...

Now, the main reason I cried and choked at the airport... I didn't know how a day would be like without her around but now I do. At camp, I would look for her every day. She'd accompany me to check the medic, wait for me during meals and many more. I don't know. She's like a sister to me. Thinking about what to type makes me wanna tear up so I better stop before I have to cry myself to sleep tonight.

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(at KIA)

I helped her carry her backpack because I wanted to although she insisted on carrying it on her own. I guess I won the fight. Hmm, how childish :) I bought her Zinger because I promised her so.

I forgot what I was thinking as I accompanied her up to the Departures' area but I know for sure that I was never looking forward to sending her off because I knew I'd break down and cry, worse than a baby.

"Okay, I need to go in liao.."
"Ha? Nooo.... *pouts*"

I couldnt' look at her then as I was having a moment and about to cry (about to, not yet). *deep breaths* She told me not to cry. How can I not, I'm an emotional person. Tears started rolling down my eyes as we made our way towards the departure hall. Note: All sorts of comforting methods don't work at all at this moment. I've hugged her many times before, each one with its own abundant amount of tender, love and care (TLC) but having in mind that this could be the last hug, made the atmosphere even more ..sad *sniff*.

I've never seen her shed tears like that before. My little tiger, rawr :) Even teachers were crying. Teachers told them not to look back after going in but who can stop them, eh? I watched her walk in, go through immigration and then disappear from my sight. I thought to myself, she's really gone.. Still crying quietly and choking every few seconds, one of my teachers came up to comfort me.

"You see, only 2 months plus, not even 3 months.. and you people are so close to each other."

I felt needy, so I sent her a text message: Sook Yin...

Why and how do I remember these things, you ask? ..
Because they matter to me :)

Sook Yin and me.. I love this picture =)

How we became close to each other, that remains a mystery to the both of us. Seriously, we don't know either. It just happened.

Oh, I'm not that much shorter than her, it's an optical illusion =P

Inilah saat terakhir ku melihat kamu

Jatuh air mataku menangis pilu

Hanya mampu ucapkan selamat jalan kasih
-Saat Terakhir by ST 12

That song will never retire from my mind.

xoxovon

I MISS YOU.